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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

I can't help to feel really depressed by the news... suddenly ..
It's approaching the end of the year , end of 2004 and this sort of things happened. Yes, it has striked me with fear and sympathetic to our neighbouring folks out there , in southern Asia Indonesia esp , the worst hit by magnitude 9.0 earthquake off the northern tip of the Indonesian island of Sumatra , followed by india and thailand.

This largest earthquake happened 40 years later; today at 26/12/04
Massive waves triggered by earthquakes crashed into villages along a wide stretch of Sri Lankan coastline on Sunday, killing thousands. Imagine u are walking along the street , happily enjoying your vacation and suddenly here comes a wall of water 30 feet high swept ashore, other moment you will be swept away by the merciless waves , you does not have time to think. u may survive , but your loved one gone, the village people gone, the warming smile of the children and the old folks; How u remember that they are the ones who gave you the shirts they were wearing. They gave you their slippers. They are the most beautiful people in the world , in this beautiful sand.

Where have they gone to now?
Bodies of children were entangled in wire mesh used to barricade seaside homes.
Bodies were carried up to the road, covered with sarongs and laid out for relatives to find.
Most will be lost in the ocean, lost forever....
Sunshine , Smiles and happiness of the children running about are no longer, they had come to grief to the helpness, sobbing for a blink of lives back from their loved ones, which seemly impossible.

In msn news, I saw this line
"Nobody was prepared. There was no warning. Lots of people were instantly dead,” said Daniel Friberg, a 24-year-old from Stockholm, Sweden, who had spent two months on the island as a bartender.

How's life sucks a big time . It is freaking unpredictable, in other moment , u are dead.

Why is this happening to us ? y does God wants to take so much people away at this point of holiday seasons. People says , "coz Gods n to punish the humankind".
How to say? A kind of fatalism that superstitious people used to say.

Who can avoid the ineviable of the natural calamity ? if SIngapore have natural disaster.......who can escape? Will it still bother you about the whom had make u angry , the TV show that you had missed last night, the money you had lost, the boring working life, the stressful singapore, the delayed buses /MRt that u had board this morning, the crowded buses mrt make u suffocated every morning, the early morning wake up the breakup with your BF/GF....etc???

Will you ever feel the same when u wake up one day by nightmarish screaming of the people for their dear life and you rush out to your window to see what is to be like when there is in front of you, the tidal wave and few blocks of flats are collapsing.............

Just 5 days to New year, but to witness a new horror. A beginning of a new horror with a desvestated of estimated 10,000 after the quake , how can I not rule out the possibilty of Epidemics?

I crossed my fingers and pray for the better recovery each day.....

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While i lost in the thoughts , a news today , this afternoon that I got a job offer in NUH , Department of laboratory medicine, Centre of Molecular Diagnosis as a medical technologist.
Well , yesterday went for the interview and then I pray secretly that i did not get the job.
Now, should I stay or leave ....Health Sciences Authority?

Despite the heap of dossiers, I am hidden behind it ....with a my secret own world of fantasizing HiGh life.
CONfess Now!
Just as I get so comfortable in my big cubicle (hehe , lucky to get my own) , stuck my butt on that damn fluffy , bounce, soft chair where u can :

Web surfing and MSN rendezvous in my twin screens monitor PC , backup by fast and power machine system processor.
Crapping nonsenses with my colleagues( I am happened to be at the strategic point of the part of the big office where it's happening( , coz of the non- ending entertainment of Ms PAng , out of the sudden joker Ms tan Chew hwa, and cold faced joker Ms siang kim, tat hard to catch joke Thomas. If u happened to be boring , nevermind , choose your own player to crap non stop ...
automated latest news and gossips corner from those eng aunties. esp after their vacations from Korea, thailand , china , hong kong and for me is a bless coz I got lots of foods n souven n special features from all over the world without spend a buck to travel around.. hohoh ~ flash that greedy smilez :)*
~received tons of gifts n chocolates on special occasion like christmas.
walk around , but do it moderately
Joyce ! loyal kakis of lurch and back home
slack...smartly.
snack..smartly.. and quietly
Where else can u go where u can rediculous in your left hand , u hold a cup of yogurt and another hand , an apple.
anytime anywhere , eat all u can as long as u complete yr task .
5 stars washroom , strategically located.
a good system of card scanning machine not like those nyp type kind of fool scanning ..
bunch of guards at the building door step, greeting u "good morning!" and took such an meticious attentive details on you " where's yr card?"
At Buena Vista (sounds like Food Fiesta 'bona fida' to me now)... freaky lots of good foods for u to choose from. (today just went down to a western restaurant near helio building and order a plate of pizza, yum and cheesy but argh..oily )
freedom of calling and msgs
freedom of surfing even the porn .....(HEy I am just joking!!!)
Choose your own route of music entertainment : by the PC or by the Ear pieces?
slacking way of life ...feels like a vacation place. (in fact, everybody there slack .....smartly)
peanuts pay privileges : choose yr 5.30pm off work or 6pm off work. LAte is not negoliable, explainable but allowable.Maximum 15 mins.. extend that limit, face your own shame! (aaaa..quite shameless '''('x') to say , this included lurch time... Somemore lift head high up and say I'm back ! ...or Good Morning! ~ 'v' ''')

i supposed that I had gone attached to my work environment.In the slacking way , the only considerable consequences are flabby arms, bulging tummy ,pudgy butt, thunderous thighs and roly -poly face !

Shall I go ? Shall I go? Shall I go ? Shall I go to touch that bloody thing to sen them to a washing machine looking thing? or PCR = Pointless Confusing Routine
Will I learn 40 diff testing types and god knows what research they are up to improve the protocol for?
Anyway , will I be happy working there after a few months and know it is a no no for me?

Something Interesting about the interview (like interrogation).
Most highbrowed questions asked:
The director : Where do u live ?
When did u graduated ?
where is choa chu kang?
etc...
Most Suspicious quote : After u walk off the room , I and prof blah blah will serious discuss about u .
We will take u seriously n tok about u( serious tone), her intense eyes sharply squinted at me.
Will call you 2moro as we have few more candidates to meet.....

Most flattering comments :
This is what I think about U .
U are a gutsy gal, a come across spontaneous, bold, dare to take up challenges, daring gal and i tik u are a good candidate. Well, BRavo!
This wat i like abt u , if I would you, I will do the same ... a blah a blah a blah a blah
(thanks , I am an aries)

Most inexplainable question by me and Most misunderstandable answer:
" I don't know y Richard got this job interview for me?" ME asked
" Maybe you are taller than him " the director replied.

Funny ? I come across this interview as freaking ??? n' funny n' easy
no flatalent stomach ,
i did not take the interview seriously enough and That is the lst time I dun feel I really need the job that I had interview for ...

But I got the job .
In a dilemma again................................................................................................

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Should I Stay? By Gabrielle

Here I Am Waiting For A Sign I Never Seem To Know
If You Want Me In Your Life Where Do I Stand
I Just Don't Know
I Never Feel I Know You
'cause You Blow Hot And You Blow Cold It Seems I've Grown Attached
Though We're Not The Perfect Match
I Just Can't Explain
Chorus :
Should I Stay
Should I Go
Could I Ever Really Stand To Let You Go
Can You Now Find The Right Words To Say
That Maybe I'm Getting In Your Way
I Feel Your Warmth Got Me Wanting More You've Left The Door Half Open
I'm In Two Minds To Explore But Then Again
Am I Being Honest Being Truthful To Myself Can I See My Life Without You
Could I Be With Someone Else
It Seems I've Grown Attached Though We're Not The Perfect Match
I Just Can't Explain
Chorus:
Should I Stay
Should I Go
Could I Ever Really Stand To Let You Go
Can You Not Find The Right Words To Say
That Maybe I'm Getting In Your Way
Should I Stay
Should I Go
I Really Think It's Time That You Should Let Me Know
Can You Not Find The Right Words To Say
That Maybe I'm Getting In Your Way
It Seems I've Grown Attached
Though We're Not The Perfect Match
Chorus
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Coinicidence

it is a unexplainable word in this strange world!
yesterday went to clementi to get my spec repair. As an abusive spec owner, this spec is down on it's luck...
I thought abt my PSB colleagues and wonder how they are doing recently, seems that we had start to lose contact .
I saw Henry outside NTUC yesterday and I am like .... squinted my eyes and look at him ..
"Are u Harry .. Henry? " ( i used to call him hairy and his peepz will laugh at him , got him red faced ! )
he too, dumb stucked .. .
"well, still in PSb pian zi pian he ....." ( i am also in HSA pian zi pian he....)
"when are coming back to psb ?"
" HUH??? siaoz ! "
Blah
blah
blah
" Call u out someday , bravo!"

wah... round round world isn't it?

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